Depression!

khamoshi ke in lamhon ka kya karunga mein?
tanhayee ke is alam se kaise sahunga mein?
kaise mitayoonga apne kaanon men parhne waali is sannate ki aahat ko
batao priyatam tum bin kaise rahunga mein

man se sochte samjhte hain yeh jaanta hun mein
par kya gila is dil ki jo yeh hamesha rota hai
hasne ki chah ho toh bhi isey hamesha
has ke firse rona hi parhta hai

kyon yeh duniya nahin samajhti ki pyaar kya cheez hai
kyon yeh khuda nahin samjhta ki aashiquon ki doorie kya cheez hai
kyon yeh jahaan nahin chahta ki milan ki gharhi kabhi naa aaye
kyon, akhir kyon swayam bhagya nahin chahta ki ham pass naa ayein

aur agar bhagya maan bhi gya toh fir is man ka kya karunga main
yeh toh bechara asliyat ki waqfiyata ka shikaar hai
kuch sapna dekh nahin pata koi bhav samjh nahin pata
dil kuch kehta hai toh jawaab de deta hai, nahin yeh impractical cheez hai


Sometimes i wonder if too much of sense and thinking is a bane given to us as punishments of crimes unknown.

Useless, Pointless and Totally Arbit

Well since I am absolutely vella, I thought of writing something for my bloggae(no that’s not what I call it but just an arbit thing which came into my mind(see I am so vella?(in fact vella enough to goon putting bracket after bracket(Stop it!))))(Ok so check if they are all closed!). And what better thing to write about than my vellaness-The inspiration behind this post!

So these days even though college is of I am still residing in my dear WD-17 at Shivalik reason being I am doing an intern here in Noida with a Multinational VLSI Design Company(See me boasting!:) )(P.S. Does anyone know how to put a smiley in brackets? Somehow I am never able to do that comfortably) Virage Logic International. (Ya now go back there and read where I left off and started the bracket!)Okkk Intern ... you must be thinking that how can I be free when I am interning. Aaah! That friends is the thing. I had heard it from every one of my seniors.."Koi intern pe kucch nai (mazdoor style!)seekhta". But I didn’t believe it till today I am sitting in my office and writing this post!!!I mean I literally do NOTHING here. Take a look at my average day schedule"

9AM: Reach Office. Switch on PC. Open Gmail, FB... check for new mail or notifications.
9:15: Go to Cafeteria(Yes the company has its own and what's more, catering is by Yellow Chilies that guy Sanjeev Gupta's company) for breakfast
9:45: Open a couple of design files. Play around a bit. Get bored. Doze off.
10:30: Wake up. Have a drink of water. Faced with nothing better to do, so open up BlogSpot. Start reading random posts by random people.
12:00: Realize with a shock what you are here for as Boss walks in. Says it’s nice you blog also. Sometimes I wonder if I should tell him that as far as his office is concerned, I JUST blog!
12: 15: After a discussion with boss get back to blogs.
1:00: Say hi to my gf who logs in around this time.
1: 15: Head off for lunch
1;45: Chat with gf
4:00: Gf logs off and reprimands me for not working. Threatens with dire consequences if I don’t do something constructive. Gives moral lecture. I enjoy every bit of her!( I love you qti!)
4:15: Try to work. Give up
4:45: Log onto to Google news and read the day's happenings
5:20: Pack up my bag and leave

See how vella I am??? Gosh. The only thing I can think of right now is going back to hostel and playing counterstrike with the guys! Hmm... ya I think its best to end this here. I don’t want to be killing with boredom those few holy souls who read my blog! Take care guys. Maybe next time I’ll come up with a better post!!!

(P.S. ya the real reason for logging off is that its time for lunch!!!)

An Ode to Nesci

All dressed n red and black you stood
Beckoning many a hungry IITian
Maggi and muffin and croissants were all you offered
Yet you took our hearts away

It was you we came to for our nightly sojourns
Twas you who helped us survive the long nightouts
You it was who we came to cry to over our grades
And you we came for treats for birthdays

You habroured many a lonely couple
And many a drunk group of hooligans
NOt to mention the frequent sutteris
All of whom made you their ultimate destination

And you it was who stood neutral
Through all the headcounts and alliances of Poltu
And you it was that who we came to
for that elusive bill for rebate

But now you are gone, gone and dead
Tis but ruin that stands
No more are the voices heard from the windows
No more the all night stands

And it seems with you my life has gone
Seems IIT's not worth it anymore
almost as if we've lost the degree
that we were to take and go

What use a bday without the ice tea?
What use the RCA event without the customary treat?
What use the minors without ur coffee
What use Oh what use this IIT?

NESCI: YOU WILL STAY WITH US IN OUR HEARTS FOREVER

Lakshya!

Jaag uthe armaan aaj hain, fir kuch karne ki chah mein
Chhoot gaye peeche parhav hain, paa liye jo kal the
Parv aaj seedha kharha hai, lakshya dikhaye chunauti de
Na rukna hai, na thamna hai jayenge ab karm bhumi mein

Rah yeh saral na hogi, jaan yeh ham satark hain
Manzil kathintam kathin hogi, jaan yeh ham adag hain
Paa liya tha paharh toh fir parv yeh kya cheez hai
Jeet liya duniya ko toh fir bandhu

Larhki yeh kya cheez hai!

Soch yeh main chal parha, rah ki us pagdandi par
Soch yeh main ghus gaya, ishq ki us ran bhoomi mein
soch yeh main chaturai se, laga baandhne dhaage anek
Pra socho kya mera haal hua, jab thukraye usney mere prastav anek!

Yojnayein bani aur bigarh gayi
Bahaane banyaye aur toot gaye
Kahawatein kahin jo muk rahin
Aur baazi samajho haari si gayi

Par fir achanak chamtkar hua
"Random" sa ek hahahkaar hua
Aur hazaaron lakhonh yugon ke uprant
Mera pehla dao safal hua

Bas fir kya tha, main tut parha
Har ek sambhav prayas kiya
Jo kuch tha sab luta diya
Aur ant mein usey paa hi liya

Aur aaj paakar harshit hoon,
Khushi ki maar ko seheta hoon,
Par sabak main seekh chuka hoon
Saara vishv ek taraf aur yeh nazuk si ladki alag!

Ek Aaftab...

Ek aaftab aisa, jo mujhe bhi roshni de

Bhatak rha tha jeevan ki in sunsaan rahon mein gum
Dhund rha tha moh maya ke is junglemein ummeed ki ek dhun
Chah rha tha jeevan ki raahon mein ek sathi main

Ek aaftab aisa jo mujhe bhi roshni de

Bhatakte huey is jaanwar ne paaya ek komal hath ka sparsh
Dhundhti hui in nazron ne dekha ek naya raasta, chaha kuch naya kar
Chah ki nadiyon ne paaya junoon-e-mohabbat ke baandh ka aasra

Ek aaftab aisa jo mujhe bhi roshni de

Aur bhatak kho gayi, aur rah mil gayi
Aur moh bhi jeet liya, aur maya ko adhin kar liya
Aur pyaar kar liya, kisi pe main mar mit gya

Ban chala fir man swayam

Ek aaftab aisa jisney kisi aur ko roshni di


Ok Now completely random poem... No head tail, just a thought that our salvation lies in the salvation of others...

Samasya

Tha kharha main morh par
Ek gehri kashmakash mein
Do rahein thi mere samksh
Aur meri manzil thi wahin kahin pe

Tab mili woh mujhe
Jisko dekh main chup ruk sa gya
Aur rah ke sabhi morh
Morh kar uski or barhne laga

Fir aawazz chooti...

ek tara dekh kar
tu yun taktaka kyon kharha hai?

husn ke is zulm mein
tu bhatakta kyon fira hai?

thi alag toh soch teri
toh aaj ghayal kyon parha hai?

chorha tha aanchal tune uska
toh aaj haath barhaye kyon kharah hai?

kyon kharha hai yun mukh par
aaj fir kisi ka naam leke?

kyun guma hai tu ishq mein
fir kisi ka khwaab dekh ke?

kyun parha hai tu zamin par
aaj fir kisi ka dil jeetne

bhul gya zakhm woh
jo aj tak bhar na saka hai?

bhul gaya aah woh
jiski karah se goonj aaj tak tu rha hai?

bhul gaya woh pyaas apni
jo sada adhuri hi rhi?

bhul gya kya woh aas apni
jo kabhi puri na hui?

uth, kharh aur aage barh
jeevan muk tuk na parha hai

jaa dekh apni manzil ko rahi
aaj path seedha parha hai

mat bhatak aaj rah se
aaj gantavya svayam kharha

chorh moh aur maya ka bandhan
aaj din tera charha hai



par main wahan chup rha
aur main whan muk rha
soch na paya bol na paya
kuch karna tha woh kar na paya

dekha ek disha toh dikhe
pichli galtiyon ke dukh anek
dekha duji taraf toh paya
manzilon ka dher anek

par dekh andar main sehem gya
chehra uska tha wahan khila
dekh us chehre ko mera
mukh bhi sehej muska gya

thi raunak woh jo kabhi na payi
thi hasin aise jo na kabhi khil khilayee
the khwab hasin jo na kabhi dekhe the
the raaste anek jo kaafi tedhe the

par raaston ke ant mein
dekha ujala sa bhara tha
jisey dekh aankhen band ho gayin
aur saamne ka dipak dhundla gya

fir suni aawaz woh
jo mujhe tarhpa rhi thi
fir suni salah woh
jo mujhe samjha rahi thi

par suni fir aawaz uski
aur mera man behel gya
bhul bandhan bhul dikkat
bhul sab dukh samasya main gya

aur wahin dusri aawaz
atyaadhik feeki kamzor parhi
aur mere pag swayam se
uski aur barhne lage

dekh barhta usney kaha
ruk ja murkh sehem ja
saamne hai rah teri
yeh nahin marg tera

bola main tujhe dekh kar
hi toh main sab chorh chaarh aaya hun
bola main ai phoolon ki kali
tujhe paane ki aas main laya hun

yeh sun woh murjha si gayi
jaise chand chup sa gya
dekh mani hairan hua
aur wahin par theher gya

naa jaanti thi main
ki andha tujhe main karungi
jaanti hoti toh shayad
chorh aati tej wahin pe

yeh sun main chakraya
darr sa gya, fir himmat se kadam barhaya
ai chandini, ai mrignayinee
kya nahin dekh paya main?

veh boli

saamne toh dekh rahi
rah teri seedhi parhi hai
toh bhatak tu kyon rha hai
marg ke beechon beech mein

gantavya toh sabka vahi hai
jo dekh tu aaj behka gya hai
par rah toh alag hai
kyon chala hai khudkhushi karne?

aaj jo tu yahan kharah hai
aaj jo tu kuch ban parha hai
woh is rah ki hi toh den hai
woh is rah ka tere liye prem hai

rah nahin hai dushman teri
nai le jayegi aisi jagah
jahan tu pahunch kahe
oof yeh toh choot hi gya

yun kaha aur tej halka kiya
toh aankhen fir khuli si
dekha rah ke ant mein tha wahi ujala
uski meri rah thi mano ek parhi

aur fir main samajh gya
meri rah toh seedhi hi parhi thi
par aankhon ke dhokhe ne
ghuma diya tha is dimag ko

jo mujhe lga ki ant tha
woh toh keval parhav tha
jo mujhe laga dhundhla deepak
woh toh bas uskey tej ka ek ant tha

manzil toh meri vahi thi
par raast bhi vahi tha
chunki tej halka hone par dekha
saamne geheri khayi thi

aur yeh jaan ke main muskuraye
vah bhi halki si sharmayi
boli ab chalo pathik
abhi baari nahin hai hamari aayi

par haan main tumhare saath chalungi
par thorhi duur is taraf
kyonki jo yeh tej hai
yeh bhi toh tumhara hi hai

aur ab main prafullit ho gya
maano amrit pee hi liya ho
saaman bandha, lakshhya saadha
aur uski roshni ki rah mein
barhta gya

If you managed to reach the end well then mail me! u deserve a treat! lol
probably one of my longest poems ever, but pretty close to heart...

Pyaar Kar

Pyaar se peeche mat hatt raahi
Pyaar mein kayi khwaab hain
Sach na hon toh kya hua
Aaj ka toh wohi sahaara hain.

Kal jo tha woh beet gya
Kal ko kisne dekha hai
Par aaj toh samksh kharha hai
Aaj tu pyaar kar.

Agar paa liya toh acha hai
Agar kho diya toh gam na karna
Paa toh tune kitni baar liya tha
Usey paane ki soch kar.