A confused confession

Its a double edged blade
A battle never won
A sweetless sugary cake forbidden
Adam’s apple in Eden.

An unexplicable fascination
Of desires unfathomed
Of passions immeasurable
And joyfuls of pain

A paid duty
A religious offering
A submission to temptation
And a mark of love

Three apparent dishonourable
The last,mine, a prideable virtue
Why then do I feel
A difference before and after

Why then do I grieve
the act of commitment
Why then do I wonder
Over the milk spilt

A taboo psychological?
A fear of completion?
An apprehension of commitment?
Or a terror of the inner truth?

The past is haunting
The future daunting
Yet I try among the ruins of failed efforts
To make this present worth happily remembering.

Depression!

khamoshi ke in lamhon ka kya karunga mein?
tanhayee ke is alam se kaise sahunga mein?
kaise mitayoonga apne kaanon men parhne waali is sannate ki aahat ko
batao priyatam tum bin kaise rahunga mein

man se sochte samjhte hain yeh jaanta hun mein
par kya gila is dil ki jo yeh hamesha rota hai
hasne ki chah ho toh bhi isey hamesha
has ke firse rona hi parhta hai

kyon yeh duniya nahin samajhti ki pyaar kya cheez hai
kyon yeh khuda nahin samjhta ki aashiquon ki doorie kya cheez hai
kyon yeh jahaan nahin chahta ki milan ki gharhi kabhi naa aaye
kyon, akhir kyon swayam bhagya nahin chahta ki ham pass naa ayein

aur agar bhagya maan bhi gya toh fir is man ka kya karunga main
yeh toh bechara asliyat ki waqfiyata ka shikaar hai
kuch sapna dekh nahin pata koi bhav samjh nahin pata
dil kuch kehta hai toh jawaab de deta hai, nahin yeh impractical cheez hai


Sometimes i wonder if too much of sense and thinking is a bane given to us as punishments of crimes unknown.

Ek Aaftab...

Ek aaftab aisa, jo mujhe bhi roshni de

Bhatak rha tha jeevan ki in sunsaan rahon mein gum
Dhund rha tha moh maya ke is junglemein ummeed ki ek dhun
Chah rha tha jeevan ki raahon mein ek sathi main

Ek aaftab aisa jo mujhe bhi roshni de

Bhatakte huey is jaanwar ne paaya ek komal hath ka sparsh
Dhundhti hui in nazron ne dekha ek naya raasta, chaha kuch naya kar
Chah ki nadiyon ne paaya junoon-e-mohabbat ke baandh ka aasra

Ek aaftab aisa jo mujhe bhi roshni de

Aur bhatak kho gayi, aur rah mil gayi
Aur moh bhi jeet liya, aur maya ko adhin kar liya
Aur pyaar kar liya, kisi pe main mar mit gya

Ban chala fir man swayam

Ek aaftab aisa jisney kisi aur ko roshni di


Ok Now completely random poem... No head tail, just a thought that our salvation lies in the salvation of others...